Bonjour mes amies! Ooh it’s been a while since the last one, nearly a year in fact and I didn’t think I’d ever be writing again, to be frank, I won’t go into why I’ve been away or make any promises that this will be a regular thing, thinking I might just dip back in when I feel like it to be honest. An outlet for when I need it. Also, cheeky coincidence, today is actually my blogs birthday, 3? 4? I don’t know, I know, I’m a terrible mother, slap on the wrist.
I also actually planned this post while having a little one-woman boogie in my kitchen while cooking pasta, there’s no shame here.
So what I wanted to say is that I’ve had an epiphany of sorts, something that’s been a long time coming. I’m single and have been for just over a year, in that time I’ve also dated two (questionable) guys for a few weeks, safe to say I’m glad they both ended, sorry lads! I have a complicated relationship with love (don’t we all hun), I enjoy caring for other people and making them feel wanted, it makes my heart happy. I love that feeling but now I have reached a point where I am happy on my own, super happy actually. I have a very fulfilling life, wonderful friends and I study a subject that fascinates me and right now that’s what’s important. Getting a good degree has far more value than potentially some fling with someone who isn’t right for me, been there done that, got the t-shirt. So right now I’m choosing to be single.
…I mean don’t get me wrong hun, I love all that romantic stuff and miss having a partner in crime and I’m sure if the love of my life walked into my life tomorrow, I’d still make time for them.
So I guess what I’m saying is, I’m happy and I just wanted to celebrate that. I hope this doesn’t come across as bragging or anything, it’s just for a long time I thought I needed someone in my life to make me happy. Turns out I was wrong, sometimes you just need good friends, something to throw yourself into and a good ol’ kitchen boogie!